Saturday, January 21, 2006



this house a complete and utter war zone and Im the enemy I cant do anything right I get the best grades I can Im passing all my classes I keep my room clean most the time and yet still everytime I ask for something they say no all I wanted was hairdye .... pink hair dye ... no sam cant have hair dye but they will help the tobbaco industry and buy my brother cigerattes that will give him cancer ..... its so stupid I try so hard to make everyone happy and in the end no ones hapy especially me it just makes me want to REBEL and say screw it I want to be happy so bad and it isnt going to happen by pleasing my parents .... they want whats best .. making your child feel as though they will never be good enough no matter how hard they try and that they are a complete screw up ISNT HELPING THEM AT ALL .. My brother can take my grandmas car and go get drunk and high and still they buy him cigarrettes and he gets to use their cars sam hasnt done anything even close to that and nope she cant do shit or get anything


I HATE IT

Sunday, January 15, 2006

this weekend and the upcoming dance

so since everyone was telling me to update I was like ok fine gosh so now I am doing the whole update thing that is cool and stuff so this weekend was pretty fun friday night was my friend Dileo's Slumper thing and then saturday I got my hair cut and then today I went to church and then with Kim , Eric , Kat , and J Bob to this one place to shot arrows that was fun then came home and sat around with my lazy self lol oh snaps the dance is in 2 weeks and I have no dress !!! ahh
I should go buy one eh?
Well umm thats it
BYE BYE

Sunday, January 01, 2006

my birthday , and the end of christmad vaca


Well my birthday is going to suck due to the fact that Im such a horrible child ... right ..... w/e Im so sick of this somedays I would rather be anywhere even at a circus (I hate clowns) than at my house with my parents its ridicous if mom or dad want something .. they get it if kim or eric want something they get it too ... but if Sam wants something oh my gosh how dare she ask .... even though it is my birthday tomorrow and all I wanted was a certain Item but w/e its typical
they keep bringing up my cell phone I PAY MY OWN BILL AND THEY DIDNT HAVE TO PAY FOR THE PHONE .... its completely stupid ... Uggh I keep having really bad headaches but my mom wont take me to the doctor she thinks Im faking it b/c Ill be fine on minute and thenext BAM I cant even look at light with out my head pounding like WHOA oh well 3 years and 1 more day and Im gone .....
Sammy